Thursday, January 17, 2013

I woke up this morning....

I woke up this morning a 40 year-old breast cancer survivor.

I woke up this morning with a husband of 17 years that has shown me more ups and downs then any roller coaster at an amusement park.  He has driven me to a point of madness I felt nonreturnable, and shown me depths of love unspeakable.

I woke up this morning a mother of a nine-year-old boy almost as tall as me and a six-year-old much more precocious.  Two very different individuals that show such strength, courage, bravery, empathy, understanding, love, beauty, and power everyday that I think they were put here on this earth to teach me how to be a better person, not the other way around.

I woke up this morning in darkness.  And I prayed.  I thanked God for winning the cancer lottery.  I thanked him for a husband who can go days without sleep and still get me into a shower at 9:00 p.m. at night.  I thanked him for these amazing boys that have shown me a strength I never thought I had within me pulling me along through panic and through pain and past myself.

I woke up this morning confused.  Not only about where I was, but who I was.  When did I become this person?  When did I become braver than I believe, stronger than I seem, and smarter than I think.

I woke up this morning.  I looked in the mirror and I said, "Hello.  My name is strength, power, grace, beauty, and love.  It is very nice to meet you. 

I woke up this morning......


  1. T, you are a fabulous writer, and are expressing your experience beautifully. I'm so happy that this step is behind you, and wish all things ahead go very well for you. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!

    1. Thanks Liz - maybe we can both go walk with Carole this year and wear our pink!!!